The beginning of the end...it is actually in sight:)

We have our SDA appointment date!!  May 16, 2011 we will begin the process in Ukraine to bring our Dasha home...

Al and I fly out on Friday, May 13 (please DO hold the gasps in...we are not superstitious:)..at least not yet!!

Knowing when we leave is bringing about a million different emotions...the first of which is absolute.pure.joy.  We have been praying for Dasha to come home, and much like every other part of this process, God has answered our prayers...speaking of, if ANY of you ever need proof of our Lord...or you just need a pick-me-up..call me.  You cannot even believe the number of miracles ONLY POSSIBLE THROUGH GOD that have occurred throughout this process...I mean, WOW!!!

Right below our feelings of joy, are feelings of dread. NOT having anything to do with Dasha..we have NO second thoughts...but we do have to leave our other 4 babies behind, and that is tough.  Al keeps saying that sometimes you have to put one of your children first, when they need you...and Dasha IS our child..so in a few weeks, we will be coming to her.  We will put her first, so that by summertime, we will have all 5 of our daughters home where they belong...and again our world will be right...and all of our children will be "first."  I will say, logically I know all of these things...but EVERY SINGLE  TIME I let my mind go to the place where in 3 weeks I won't be tucking anyone in, singing You are My Sunshine at night, kissing chubby cheeks...even changing diapers seems like a luxury when you know that soon you won't be here to do those things...when my mind goes there, my heart breaks.  When I first found out that I would have to leave my girls, I thought "what will they do without me?"  Well, joke is on me...I don't know what I will do without them...I am not even sure I know who I am, without them...not in a bad, I need a life kind of way...but in a "God has blessed me SO abundantly with my daughters that I never want to be away from them" kind of way...

This too shall pass, and soon, our family will be complete...

Thank you for your support...I will keep the updates coming, as we begin the completion of our family..